Self-remembering
We are living, but we are not aware that we are or that we are living. There is no self-remembering. You are eating, taking a bath, taking a walk, but you are not aware. You are aware of everything around you, of the whole world but you are not aware of your own being – that you are.
Your mind can reflect everything, but cannot reflect you. If you are aware of yourself, then you have transcended the mind. Your self-remembering cannot be reflected in your mind because you are behind the mind. You can just see others, but you cannot see yourself. Your eyes can see everyone, but your eyes cannot see themselves. If you want to see yourself you will need a mirror. It cannot reflect you because you cannot stand before it. You are always behind, hidden behind the mirror.
This technique says while doing anything – singing, seeing, tasting – be aware that you are and discover the ever-living, and discover within yourself the current, the energy, the life, the ever-living.
It is very difficult. It looks very easy, but you will go on forgetting. Even for three or four seconds you cannot remember yourself. You will have a feeling that you are remembering, and suddenly you will have moved to some other thought. Even with this thought that ”Okay, I am remembering myself,” you will have missed, because this thought is not self remembering. In self-remembering there will be no thought; you will be completely empty. And self-remembering is not a mental process.
”I am.” Feel ”I am,” not the words ”I am.” Don’t verbalize, just feel that you are. Don’t think, FEEL! Try it. It is difficult, but if you go on insisting it happens. While walking, remember you are, and have the feeling of your being, not of any thought, not of any idea. Just feel. I touch your hand or I put my hand on your head: don’t verbalize. Just feel the touch, and in that feeling feel not only the touch, but feel also the touched one. Then your consciousness becomes double-arrowed.
The sutra says be aware you are; it simply says ”You are”. No name is needed, no country is needed. Let there be simple existence: you are! So don’t say to yourself who you are. Don’t answer that, ”I am this and that.” Let there be simple existence, that you are. And the moment you are aware that you are, you are thrown into the current of the ever-living. The false is going to die; only the real will remain.