Feel, don’t think
We have become so intellect-oriented that even when we say that we are feeling, really we are not feeling, we are thinking. Feeling has completely stopped; it has become a dead organ in you. Even when you say, ‘I love,’ it is not a feeling, it is again a thought. If you feel, you will feel yourself centered near the heart. If I say, ‘I love you,’ this very feeling of love will flow from my heart, the center will be near the heart. If it is just a thought, it will come from my head. In feeling, the center of being is the heart. When you touch something, close your eyes; don’t think, feel try to develop it. Grow in sensitivity. When you touch, when you hear, when you eat, when you take a bath, allow your senses to be open. Don’t verbalize.
Close your eyes and feel the thought. A continuous flow of thoughts is there, a continuum, a flux; a river of thoughts is flowing. Feel these thoughts, feel their presence. And the more you feel, the more will be revealed to you – layers upon layers. Only the inner silence is yours. No one has given it to you. You were born with it, and you will die with it.
Look at that thought which you have always been calling MY thought. Established in feeling, looking at thought, the MY disappears. And MY is the trick because out of many MY’S, out of many ME’S, the I evolves – this is MINE, this is MY. So many MINE’S; out of them the I evolves.
Thought is the root of all. If you can cut the feeling of MY at the very root, it will not appear again, When thoughts have disappeared or you are not clinging to them – if they are passing it is none of your business, you are aloof and detached and unidentified, and the I-NESS has disappeared – then you can look at the internal organs.
When thoughts are uprooted, when I-NESS has disappeared, when internal organs are known, the ME appears. Then for the first time my real being is revealed – that real being is called ME. This ME doesn’t belong to you. This ME is your innermost center, unknown to you. This ME is not an ego. This ME is not against any YOU. This ME is cosmic. This Me has no boundaries. In this ME everything is implied. This ME is not the wave. This ME is the ocean. FEEL: MY THOUGHT, I-NESS, INTERNAL ORGANS. Then there is a gap, and suddenly the ME is revealed. When this ME is revealed, then one comes to know, ‘Aham Brahmasmi. I am the God.’ This knowing is not any claim of the ego; the ego is no more there.